Thursday, February 10, 2011

Delicious Ambiguity

Alexandra Levit was right when she was talking about how we might be taking our job for granted. 'Meaning is in the eye of beholder'; we create our own meaningful experiences.

I was supposed to attend an interview yesterday. I was at crossroads deciding whether or not I should go. On one hand, the position wasn't really something I'm after. It's one of the little tricky things about the terms of my sponsorship. I'm supposed to serve for my sponsor, but I don't get a say in choosing the line of works I'm interested in or passionate about.

On the other hand, I am aware I cannot get too complacent with my current position. For the time being and in the next year, my responsibilities will involve working with and assisting small companies - they will be where I derive my meaning from. However, my office environment isn't too nurturing of my dreams, values and inspirations and for someone who attach values to her works - it's a struggling environment to survive.

I decided to give the interview a pass, and it feels like the right decision to do. Coming back to the office yesterday with my desk piled up with pending works gave me a sense of purpose and hope. I have no idea what's in store for me in the future, but I believe the right thing will come when the time is right - what's important is for me to be good at what I do and I do it right.

A wise old man once told me, "You need to set your goal or goals clearly and work hard and prove that qualifications apart, you are someone who acts ethically in all that you do,- in other words, you are trustworthy. Time is on your side; you are young and the world is at your feet". I think I'm beginning to get it.

6 comments:

Opie said...

Ain't that the truth.. ^^

I've been thinking of changing courses of late, but a large part of me still wanted to remain where I currently am. At first I thought it was complacence; that where I am right now was not helping me be where I want to be and that I needed to have a change of scenery, so to speak..

But you know what? when I do get to sit quietly and listen to my heart, I find out that where I am right now really is where I'm supposed to be..

For better or for worse? well, that will all depend on me now, won't it? :)

Unknown said...

Kak Sofie,

Is this what they call "growing up"?

:)

Opie said...

Maybe..

But I also think it might be called "Living Life" XD

Dreams are great and all, but they're fickle things; they need solid experiences and wisdom to come to life..

Now where would we get the best of these, if not from the shabby, confusing and over-worked parts of our lives? :p

Unknown said...

Kak Sofie, I agree!

People don't make big dreams from easy lives, no?

Here's to both of us and living!

PS. Happy birthday my friend! What's your wish for this year? :)

Opie said...

My wish? hm, I've never really thought about it..

Do you ever notice that wishes and dreams are never something specific, and that they can't usually be explained upon request?

But we tend to realize what they are when we see or experience things.. a sudden realization like, "Ah, I've always wanted to do this/that!" or "Oh, that's a good way to live!"

My most recent 'realization' episode involved a 7kg drastic weightloss, excruciating pain and a cute, sympathetic specialist on Valentine's Day.. ;p

My wish this year is to officially work towards having someone special in my life.

Unknown said...

Kak Sofie,

I think that's a very brave wish to have!

Now you put it that way, I realise I'm not sure what my wish really are for 2011. Hm...

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