1. I know I am not the most beautiful girl in the world. But I feel what I have so far perfectly match each other, and I love them for it. My crooked teeth, my less than perfect skin, and my undefined figure, there are always ways to love them at a different time of the day.
2. Of course I adore making up my hair, but sometimes cutting them short allow me the liberty to believe my substance does not lie all in the beauty of my body.
3. I can feel beautiful wearing flattering jeans or dresses, but I also feel graceful being covered under my hijab. Sometimes, I find modesty is all I need in the day to feel good about myself.
4. I wish I could have a man to love by my side. But many times I feel so because I think how great a life can be to share all your dreams together with someone you love, not because I cannot stand being alone or lost in the world. Love is a gift to give, not a cure to a disease.
5. Certainly having fun means living a full life. But fun does not necessarily constitutes loud noises or superficial acquaintances. There are so many people out there in the world who seems to be having fun 24/7 but they are broken inside. Sometimes we forget as a human being, sadness, loneliness, and imperfection are but a part of life and sometimes they are not all our fault. Sometime being happy means allowing yourself a slack to let the world go round without you and retreat into yourself to find that smiling heart again.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Work Like a Dog, Eat Like a Pig
Okay, it is not entirely true. Because when I'm working I'm on high, and being on high to me is equivalent to being distressed. When I'm distressed, I retreat and I only eat when my stomach is at the edge of collapsing. I've been eating whatever I have in the fridge in the past week, and if you wonder what it is, it consist of egg in one way or another.
Half-boiled egg, omelette, french toast - and pancakes, of course, because out of one egg and one cup of flour I can make up to five pancakes, which covers me for breakfast and lunch.
As of now, I am finishing an assignment reviewing a research done on public attitudes towards electricity alternatives - an applied social research. Ever wonder where all those knowledge of primers, polymerase and DNA sequencing go? Certainly not in evaluating whether people have designed questionnaires or interview questions with enough clarity.
Life works in mysterious ways, I certainly and ardently hope.
My schedule will be filled with events throughout the impending semester break. The backpacking trip to Canberra and Melbourne, Sydney Film Festival, the remaining law assignments, and Power Shift. A relaxing one too, I hope despite all the excitements. I am simply looking forward to put both my feet up and read as much books as I can.
Half-boiled egg, omelette, french toast - and pancakes, of course, because out of one egg and one cup of flour I can make up to five pancakes, which covers me for breakfast and lunch.
As of now, I am finishing an assignment reviewing a research done on public attitudes towards electricity alternatives - an applied social research. Ever wonder where all those knowledge of primers, polymerase and DNA sequencing go? Certainly not in evaluating whether people have designed questionnaires or interview questions with enough clarity.
Life works in mysterious ways, I certainly and ardently hope.
My schedule will be filled with events throughout the impending semester break. The backpacking trip to Canberra and Melbourne, Sydney Film Festival, the remaining law assignments, and Power Shift. A relaxing one too, I hope despite all the excitements. I am simply looking forward to put both my feet up and read as much books as I can.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
The Most Enlightening Lecture
"Culture, religion, ideologies are not immutable phenomenon"
We were talking about international governance last week. John Merson, the director of our school showed us how a mutual interest or concern can trascend differences or divides between nations. He also showed us the potential impact of climate change in 15-30 years, as I saw from the map, if unmitigated, Malaysia is included in the red region where the increasing sea levels will practically submerge our peninsular.
A sovereign nation, lost into the sea. I wonder if anyone in our government is taking notice about this?
If you ask me about my lecturers in UNSW, one notable example I found in them is they are actively involved with what's going on out there. Whether they have worked in industries in a long time and then found themselves teaching with the impending of their retirement age, like my teacher who used to serve in the Department of Premier and Cabinet of NSW, or they possess enough expertise to being called as one of the consulting members in the government decision.
When we talk about solid waste management, my lecturer will draw upon his experience working with industries around Sydney, if we talk about water quality, my lecturer will show how water authorities works around NSW - and in my observation, this familiarity creates both the importance and urgency of what we as students doing in the course. Real-world problems, real-world solutions.
I think somehow the course is shaping itself before me now, and I feel more confident about the direction I am heading in near future. The only question is, how big is the barrier I have to break and bridge waiting for me in my homeland?
John Merson
We were talking about international governance last week. John Merson, the director of our school showed us how a mutual interest or concern can trascend differences or divides between nations. He also showed us the potential impact of climate change in 15-30 years, as I saw from the map, if unmitigated, Malaysia is included in the red region where the increasing sea levels will practically submerge our peninsular.
A sovereign nation, lost into the sea. I wonder if anyone in our government is taking notice about this?
If you ask me about my lecturers in UNSW, one notable example I found in them is they are actively involved with what's going on out there. Whether they have worked in industries in a long time and then found themselves teaching with the impending of their retirement age, like my teacher who used to serve in the Department of Premier and Cabinet of NSW, or they possess enough expertise to being called as one of the consulting members in the government decision.
When we talk about solid waste management, my lecturer will draw upon his experience working with industries around Sydney, if we talk about water quality, my lecturer will show how water authorities works around NSW - and in my observation, this familiarity creates both the importance and urgency of what we as students doing in the course. Real-world problems, real-world solutions.
I think somehow the course is shaping itself before me now, and I feel more confident about the direction I am heading in near future. The only question is, how big is the barrier I have to break and bridge waiting for me in my homeland?
Sunday, May 24, 2009
A Review of Everything
I watched Angels and Demons last night. A lot better than the Da Vinci Code, definitely. It made me re-think how Dan Brown managed to bring the debate of science and religion to the open, and it reminds me of Salman Rushdie recollection of his scholarly father introspecting the Quran.
That was old time, the glorious era of pluralism and healthy debate.
The assignment for reviewing the technology on energy is highly stimulating, I find. Somehow knowing the decision maker is asking your opinion about what should be done is comforting. Although I know I should not be too innocent, surely public participation - in the real world cannot escape the politics of power.
Nevertheless, I want to avoid being too much of a cynic.
I finished reading Eat, Pray, Love. Wise, but I think it must be difficult for any human being not to be a tad too self-absorbed, which is what happened with the memoir. Surely I would like to believe how God can reach out to me in any ways, but trascending and colliding with Him as one? I am yet to experience it.
Now the question of God Himself - is a subject I avoid thinking about these days.
The school is ending in two weeks, now don't you think how fast time flies? I'm coming home in six months. I'm not sure what awaits me, but I try not to fret too much. For all of you know, how much I fret.
That was old time, the glorious era of pluralism and healthy debate.
The assignment for reviewing the technology on energy is highly stimulating, I find. Somehow knowing the decision maker is asking your opinion about what should be done is comforting. Although I know I should not be too innocent, surely public participation - in the real world cannot escape the politics of power.
Nevertheless, I want to avoid being too much of a cynic.
I finished reading Eat, Pray, Love. Wise, but I think it must be difficult for any human being not to be a tad too self-absorbed, which is what happened with the memoir. Surely I would like to believe how God can reach out to me in any ways, but trascending and colliding with Him as one? I am yet to experience it.
Now the question of God Himself - is a subject I avoid thinking about these days.
The school is ending in two weeks, now don't you think how fast time flies? I'm coming home in six months. I'm not sure what awaits me, but I try not to fret too much. For all of you know, how much I fret.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
I lead a small, but valuable life
Ada orang tanya apa sudah jadi dengan cita-cita berapi saya yang macam-macam dulu?
Kadang-kadang bila orang sudah biasa mengukur diri saya atas mimpi-mimpi yang saya pernah simpan, penat juga mahu bawa mereka kembali ke masa sekarang, dan bawa mereka lihat siapa saya yang sebenarnya di sini.
Kadang-kadang bila orang sudah biasa lihat sisi kita yang satu itu, kadang-kadang mereka lupa bahawa dalam diri kita sebenarnya ada banyak sisi. People tend to choose to see things which suits their worldview.
Fair enough, tapi bukan kerja saya memuaskan hati semua orang.
Saya belajar, saya buat kerja, saya habiskan masa dengan kawan-kawan, saya masak, saya baca buku, saya berkenalan dengan orang baru, saya ketawa dengan ibu, saya menyanyi dengan anak kecil, saya sedih dan saya menangis - I have a full life, but my life is not measured in your eyes. Not necessarily.
Kadang-kadang bila orang sudah biasa mengukur diri saya atas mimpi-mimpi yang saya pernah simpan, penat juga mahu bawa mereka kembali ke masa sekarang, dan bawa mereka lihat siapa saya yang sebenarnya di sini.
Kadang-kadang bila orang sudah biasa lihat sisi kita yang satu itu, kadang-kadang mereka lupa bahawa dalam diri kita sebenarnya ada banyak sisi. People tend to choose to see things which suits their worldview.
Fair enough, tapi bukan kerja saya memuaskan hati semua orang.
Saya belajar, saya buat kerja, saya habiskan masa dengan kawan-kawan, saya masak, saya baca buku, saya berkenalan dengan orang baru, saya ketawa dengan ibu, saya menyanyi dengan anak kecil, saya sedih dan saya menangis - I have a full life, but my life is not measured in your eyes. Not necessarily.
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