The tight constriction on the left side of your chest, like your lung getting smaller and smaller. The bitter saltiness in your tongue, when you are chewing your food it takes forever going down.
The panic rush in your head when you close your eyes, because you know in darkness and in sleep is when you lose control over your mind, when your heart starts to manifest itself.
You feel like you want to put something in your mouth. A cloth, your palm, a block of wood - because you're afraid a scream, a wail might escape from it, betraying your shame, your fear and your anger to the world.
You want everyone to see you as being strong, because if they know you are heartbroken - the world will win, and you will lose.
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